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Post by Holly Kennedy on Apr 2, 2008 14:09:50 GMT -5
Holly had just come back from a day out with her new friends. She had given her new baby, 'Coli, to his daddy for the day- she claimed that she needed some rest because he kept her tired all the time. What they didn't know she was on her way out to feed her new addiction, drug addiction. Ever since her incident at the beach with Jay it had put a new perspective on life for her, she had always been the goody-to-shoes and she thought it was stupid to act like that. She wanted to enjoy another side to life she had never encountered before, a dangerous side to life. She had no idea what her new 'friend' had given her, nor did they tell her which made it all the more dangerous, not knowing exactly what you're putting into your body. She had wandered into her dorm giggling her head off for nothing, at least that is what it seemed like but she was laughing at all the funny colours she could see. Her head felt like it was spinning and eveything seemed brighter and louder and she loved it. She walked into her dorm and lay on her bed, laughing and giggling at, apparently, nothing. After a couple of hours like this she began to get a sore head and she felt like she needed it again, whatever she took, but rather than get up again she slowly fell asleep, the drugs still in her system. A couple of hours into her sleep she began to get horrible, horrific nightmares that would scare even the least scareable person. It had never been so vivid to her and she woke up in a cold sweat. She looked at her clock, reading 1:39am. She wondered if PJ had brought Nicoli back while she was sleeping. She got up and walked over to his crib, it was empty. She probably knew that PJ had fallen asleep with him again, she thought it was the most adorable thing ever when he did that, she could just watch them for hours upon end sometimes. She put her small bedside lamp on and looked in her mirror but what she saw didn't match the Holly she knew. Because of the drugs still in her system it had distorted her ideas and where she thought she was in her life, she couldn't recall much but she knew she would eventually, this happened sometimes and she knew it faded away in the end. She thought about her life for a minute as she studied what she thought was her dull long brown hair in the mirror and a much much thinner Holly than she was now, she couldn't remember much past Junior year so she figured that she must still be in Junior year. That then made her think of Jay, her boyfriend. She loved him forever and she didn't know what she'd do without him and it made her smile in her daze. She then thought back to that horriffic nightmare and she didn't ever want to go back to sleep. She opened her door silently and closed it quietly behind her, she walked, eyesight slightly blurry and completely dazed, upstairs to the boys dorms, it was almost as if she were sleepwalking to most people. She reached dorm five, Jay's dorm. She didn't want to spend the rest of the night alone and she tried the handel to the door, it was locked. She sighed and quickly but rapidly knocked on the door.
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Post by jay on Apr 2, 2008 14:34:45 GMT -5
Unable to sleep, Jay had sat up awake all night, smoking and writing pointless lyrics. Tomorrow would be the end of everything. He was going to be driven to the police station by PJ, and he was going to turn himself in. It was useless resisting, he’d already let the cat out the bag and it was only a matter of time before someone caved in and told on him. He couldn’t puzzle out the feelings burning hard inside his chest, the things that never came to be, the things he lost. Dumping Holly was the worst thing he’d ever done. Look at him now, he’d gone and stabbed her for fucks sake. That wasn’t right…he sighed, and tapped ash onto his bed as he scribbled out another hopeless line. He tried singing back what he’d written, but it wasn’t working out for him.
A knock at the door jarred him awake, and he swore when he realised he’d fallen asleep with a lit cigarette in his hand. He inspected his duvet, and found a scorch mark. Luckily it hadn’t set light. Although…dieing by flames would be an interesting way to go. Shaking off the thought, he threw the cigarette out the window and clambered off the bed, shuffling wearily to the door. Opening it slowly, he stared. Holly was standing at his door. Holly of all people. She looked a little out of it, and he just stared, unable to think of anything to say.
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Apr 2, 2008 15:00:35 GMT -5
Holly waited impatiently at Jay's dorm door. As she stood there waiting for him to open the door she started to giggle and even this time she didn't know what she was giggling for, being like this was a new sensation for Holly but she liked loved it. Even though she couldn't really think straight she could still hold her own, at least she could stand up this time, not like last time when she could hardly lift her own head and had to pretend she was sleeping all day. She didn't really want people to find out about her new habits until she felt that she wanted to tell them and she never wanted to but she knew they would probably find out eventually anyway. She heard the door open and she looked up quickly with a smile on her face. As soon as she saw him he looked a bit confused, being in her state she didn't know why. She stepped inside his dorm without saying anything, yet. She still couldn't stop thinking about that dream she had. She had dreamt that somebody had taken Nicoli from her and that they wouldn't give him back which brought a tear to her eye, as she thought about it, and it rolled down her cheek. She walked over to Jay and wrapped her arms around him and cried into his shoulder. "They won't give him back" she sobbed. She wasn't even making sense. She knew that 'Coli wasn't in his crib and it made her even more convinced that he nightmare was actually real because she didn't know where he was. [/size]
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Post by jay on Apr 2, 2008 15:15:08 GMT -5
Holly drifted into the room wordlessly, like Jay had already invited her in. He closed the door, without paying too much mind to the noise it made as it swung back on its hinges and thudded back into the frame. Turning, he felt himself getting angry. What the fuck was she doing in here? How dare she waltz in like she was … he shook his head slowly. Did she think she was still his boyfriend or something? He didn’t understand…suddenly she was clinging to him, and sobbing into his shoulder. She sobbed something, but he couldn’t make any sense of it at all. Give who back? “Holly…What the fuck are you on?” he snapped, slowly putting his arms around her waist. It felt good, and he relaxed a little, holding her close like they were still Juniors.
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Apr 2, 2008 15:51:29 GMT -5
Holly didn't really have any idea why she was crying any more after a couple of minutes. She knew they drugs did strange things to her but this was a bit far to make her cry, they had never over-taken her emotions before completely. She heard jay ask her what she was on and she laughed and giggled but with a hysterical tone to it. She really didn't know what she was on because the person she got it from didn't tell her what it was and something as serious as this made her giggle again. She felt Jay place his arms around her waist and she sighed happily as she leaned into him and tucked her head under his chin with what was left of her tears running slowly down her face. "I dunno" she giggled "They never told me" she shurugged
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Post by jay on Apr 4, 2008 6:28:46 GMT -5
Jay held her close as she cried herself out, all the while wondering what the fuck was going on. She finally stopped, and he put his hands firmly on her shoulders, holding her out at arms length. He stared bemusedly into her watery eyes, which had a sort of dazed sheen to it. She was absolutely, undoubtedly high, and Jay was slightly worried for her. He shook off the feeling, how could he feel worried for Holly?
She started giggling hysterically, and he rolled his eyes, pushing her gently towards his bed and getting her to sit down. If she passed out when she was standing up, she could hurt herself, and Jay seriously didn’t want to have to had Holly back to PJ with a concussion from hitting her head on the floor. That would definitely not go well. Sitting down next to her, he hesitantly wound his arm round her waist and pulled her close. This was seriously weird. He felt like he was a Junior again.
“They?” he asked, letting her tuck her head under his chin. Slowly he reached round and stroked her long, blonde hair with his free hand. He was getting a serious case of Deja vu. “Someone gave you drugs and you took it even though you don’t know what it is?” shaking his head in disbelief, he closed his eyes, breathing in her scent. He pulled away, and stared into her eyes again. He got flash backs to the day they got back together. Kissing her on the recording room floor…Seeing her with Liam…Punching her…The weeks after as her livid purple bruise slowly faded. He bit his lip guiltily, and blocked his mind from reminisce as he began to recall the night he stabbed her.
Making his mind up, he decided to play along with her. He would…end it…later. Taking a steadying breath, he cupped the back of her head with the hand he was stroking her hair with, and kissed her softly. It was a fleeting kiss, his lips brushing against hers only for a moment, but it felt like static electricity came away as he pulled back from her, wide eyed in wonder. He’d taken the deadly poison, and he wanted more. Pulling her close, he pressed his lips firmly to hers, sliding his tongue through her parted lips. He slid he hand round her waist up the back of her shirt and fiddled with her bra strap, careful to avoid grazing against the scar that went the whole way down her spine. The scar he’d made.
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Apr 4, 2008 8:27:10 GMT -5
Holly stood there, completely out of her mind and not having any idea what she was doing or even saying half the time with glazed eyes that would have anybody concerned, it was almost as if it was another person in her body. She wanted to stand but found felt herself being sat down on Jay's bed as he sat next to her and she smiled, she didn't know why, her feelings and emotions weren't in her control- so it seemed to her- and she felt giddy again. She fely Jay wrap his arm around her as she leaned against him, her mind travelling one hundred miles per hour. "They?" she asked with a giggle "They're not they, they're my new friends. Although I can't remember their names" she laughed "and yeah, I guess I took it...." she giggled with a sigh "....it looked cool" she smiled as she looked up to him, to his cold grey eyes. She was going to say something else that she would have never thought up in a million years when she felt Jay pull her closer and kiss her. When he let go she giggled again. It never seemed to matter what Holly had taken or not, if she was sober or not, high or not, she always seemed to laugh and giggle at everything, although that's what made her so loveable to everybody. She took a quick breath before she felt Jay pull her into another kiss, a better kiss than the first time, a more passionate kiss. She the felt the cold clutch of his hand as it travelled up her tshirt and she breated in sharply as his hand tried to unhook her bra but he kept knocking against her scar which still hurt if you touched it. She only came her for a hug from her 'boyfriend' but obviously he had other ideas on his mind and so did she, all thoughts about PJ blocked into her unconscious mind for just now. She loathed loved Jay in her present state as she kissed him back with as much force as he had as her hands travelled up his muscular arms.
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Post by jay on Apr 5, 2008 12:19:37 GMT -5
Jay rolled his eyes, as he managed to unhook her bra. A small smirk played on his lips between kissing her as he slid his hands greedily down her side to lock on to her waist, feeling the warm, soft flesh there. “You should be more careful. People could take advantage of you,” he murmured into her neck, before kissing it softly. Taking the hem of her shirt gently, he slowly pealed it off. Her bra was still hanging loosely from her shoulders, and he pressed against her as he kissed her jaw again, pushing her back against the bed.
Shifting his weight so he was straddling her properly, he ran his hand firmly up from her hips, pushing her bra out the way, but he suddenly froze. His eyes took in her chest hungrily, and in slight disgust. He was about to screw someone else’s girl. Well, that wasn’t entirely true. She had come here thinking she was his, so that was okay, right? But the thing that really made him freeze, and what he was covering up with trivial thoughts, was the ugly scar over her left collar bone.
Sighing, he leant closer to her, putting his lips by her ear. “I love you,” he whispered, his voice husky and full of emotion. He was sad that he didn’t mean it anymore, angry that he wasn’t allowed to mean it anymore, and scared that he’d never be able to say it to her again. Winding his arms round her waist, he pulled her close as he kissed her again.
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Apr 5, 2008 15:47:44 GMT -5
Out of her mind, Holly continued to kiss Jay. If she knew what she was doing without her mind being clouded by drugs she would probably have slapped herself and probably cried for hours through her shame, it was just never like her to do that, not after what he had put her through since as far back as she could remember. She heard the quiet snap of her bra as he unhooked it and she looked up at him with a cheeky smirk, she knew what he wanted now but in a way she felt reluctant, she didn't expect this- she just wanted a cuddle, but knowing Jay he always had to take it further. She felt him run his hands down her body to her waist where his hands stayed but not soon after was she raising her arms above her head as he took her tshirt from her. She began to feel a little lightheaded but giggly at the same time. She didn't even feel him push her back onto his bed, her mind had went blank for a minute and she swore she saw a couple of sparkly yellow dots in the middle of the air and she wanted to grab out to them but she was brought back to her own dilusional reality when she saw Jay jsut about sitting on top of her, legs on either side of her hips. Throwing her her clothes from her top half away didn't even make her feel the least bit exposed like she should be feeling. She could feel his breath on her neck as he whispered in her ear and it gave her girly giggly goosebumps and she sighed happily as he told her he loved her. "I love you too Jay" she smiled as she brought her face up to kiss him as she brought her arms around to his side and pulling his shirt over his head and throwing it to the floor. Had she really just said that!, she loved PJ not Jay, never in a million years would she have said that.
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Post by jay on Apr 7, 2008 10:10:57 GMT -5
Being kissed back by Holly was very weird. Jay almost felt happy again, like they really were still Juniors. But as he shifted his body against hers, the pangs in his only just healed leg reminded him of the events that had happened since then. A year had changed so many things, and his heart ached for the past. Her cheeky smirk only confirmed his worries that she would innocently let him have his way with her, and he cursed himself. He knew he wouldn’t be able to hold back, wouldn’t be able to stop himself from hurting her. He wanted to tear her apart, but he knew he shouldn’t get too carried away. He dug his nails into her shoulders as he pulled her closer for another kiss, his eyes closed tightly, trying to block her out. Releasing his fierce, vice-like grip, he stood up on his knees, and slowly undid her jeans, pushing them down to her knees. He almost felt like he was raping the poor girl. She didn’t know what the fuck was going on, and he bit his lip harshly to remind himself that he hated her. When she said she loved him back, his heart almost skipped a beat, and instead of dwelling on it he kissed her again, hooking his thumbs through the thighs of her pants…
Omg a girlxboy pairing?! OUTRAGEOUS! ….aka censored x]
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Apr 7, 2008 11:01:30 GMT -5
Holly didn't have clue what she was doing, she would regret taking those drugs- whetever they were- the next day. She would regret what she had done while under th influence of them and she would regret the fact that this was not role model behaviour towards her son, that would get to her the most. She felt Jay pull her closer and she felt a bit lightheaded again as her head tilted back, she was almost like a lifeless dolly that anybody could play with. And that's when she felt him dig his nails into her shoulder as he shifted his weight around her. She took a sharp painful breath as a tear or two leaked from her eyes in pain, she didn't want him to think she was in pain, she just thought this must be some kind of sick fantasy he had, to hurt her like this and she could almost feel small droplets of blood running down her back. Without any sensation in her body she didn't even feel him letting his grip on her go, all she knew was that she was laying on his bed again. She felt him taking her jeans from her and she tilted her up and gave him a playful smirk and he kissed her again and she giggled a little, obviously not knowing what she was giggling about in her incoherent state..... Hours later she felt like she was in extacy, maybe that's wht she had taken, she didn't know, nobody told her alot these days, probably because they tried to protect her 'innocent' mind. Loads of people thought she had a similar personality to her little brother but she wasn't as clueless as that and they never listened to her when she tried to tell the otherwise and slowly, at a time in the middle of the night that she wasn't even aware of, she fell asleep under Jay's sheets on his bed. [/size]
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Post by jay on Apr 7, 2008 11:52:36 GMT -5
He felt tired, sluggish, his ears still ringing from Holly’s screams. Turning over, he saw she was asleep, and his heart seemed to slow to a stop. With leaden limbs, he clambered silently out of bed and pulled on his clothes again. He moved over to the mirror, and stared at himself for a long time. Some might say he was vain, but he knew otherwise. This would be the last time he’d see himself … With a heavy sigh, he walked sluggishly towards the bathroom.
Turning the blood stained blade over and over in his hand, he felt himself breaking out in a cold sweat. He had to do this. He had to do it now…Reaching out his arm; he pressed the tip into the crook of his elbow, sucking in a sharp breath as he pierced the flesh. Red wine blood welled up from the wound, and he took a steadying breath. Stroking down swiftly with the blade, his eyes widened, and he crumpled to the floor, clutching at his arm and moaning in pain. Blood surged from the alarmingly deep wound, and a white flash of bone could be seen though blood. A few tears overflowed his eyes as the pain burned in his arm and blood dripped onto the floor in gushes as his heart beat faster than ever before. He let out a strangled scream as he tried to move it, and crawled across the floor, his clothes becoming drenched in his own blood. His face had gone pale, and he pushed open the door to the bathroom, leaving a bloody handprint.
As he crawled across the floor, knife in his uninjured hand, he finally managed to reach his bed. There was a trail of blood saturated carpet in his wake, and he pushed the handle of the knife under Holly’s hand, before keeling back and coughing listlessly. His eyelids felt heavy, and he couldn’t move. Blood soaked into his hair as he lay on the floor, whispering a last, stricken sentence. “I love you, Holly.”
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Apr 7, 2008 13:11:39 GMT -5
As the sunlight flooded through the uncurtained window Holly began to stir in her sleep, she always hated when people opened her blinds in the morning because she could never get back to sleep after it. She slowly opened her bright sky blue eyes as the blinked against the light flowing into the room. She looked around her slightly and realised that this wasn't her dorm, where in the hell was she? she didn't have a clue, she looked down at the sheets that covered her and definetly knew she wasn't in her own room like she last remembered, these weren't her Hello Kitty bed sheets. That's when she realised that she was naked under the sheets and she screamed a little as she brought the covers up over her more, where was she? why was she here? what had she done? oh god, she didn't even want to think about that. Whatever she had done, was it worth it? she hoped not. She started to panic further when she realised that it wasn't PJ's dorm she was in either, everything was wrong and not in the places it should be. She sat up and brought her knees up over her covered chest, that's when she felt her foot kick something that was on the bed. It felt icy cold and she shuddered at what it could be. She pulled the cover back slighty and saw what she thought she would never see next to her in a million years and that's when she felt her pounding headache and the slight nausea that came from the aftermath of her drug taking, it was almost as if her body needed it again and it was telling her that, she just shruged that off for the moment. She felt scared and she didn't know where she was. That's when it clicked, she remembered back to her Junior year at Watsons when she used to be Jay's girl. This was Jay's dorm. Oh god what had she done? She looked down at what her foot had kicked and saw the bloody covered knife that lay there, blood all over the sheets. She looked at her right hand and found it covered in blood, who's blood? she couldn't remeber cutting herself and she screamed as she kicked the kinfe off of the bed onto the floor. She started to panic, did she do this? what had she done? she couldn't stop all these questions from flowing around in her head. She whimpered like a lost puppy as she looked araound the room. That's when she spotted something somebody lying on the floor and this made her scream again. She wrapped the sheet around herself and tied it at the side as she stood cautiously from the bed. She bent down besdie the body and realised that it was Jay, she wanted to run straight away- knowing what he had done and could still do to her, but she didn't. She stopped to think for a minute and that's when she saw the blood that covered the carpet and half of the bed she was lying on and she screamed hysterically as she covered her mouth with her hand, what had she done? did she do this? She grabbed his shoulder and shook him roughly and his body had just relaxed again. She continued to shake his shoulder for a couple of minutes and she got no reply and she started to panic, her mind clouded with some many different thoughts- she didn't know what to think. There was only one prominent thing that stood out in her mind and that was that she had done this to Jay, even if she did hate him for everything that he had done to her she would never hurt him, would she? "Jay!, wake up!" she whined as she rolled him over and she screamed louder than she had before when she saw the deep gash in his arm. She put her fingers to his neck and could feel nothing and she screamed again. She knew that her right hand was covered in blood, she knew it was his blood now, and the knife lying next to her in the bed could only mean one thing to her. She had did this! Did she have a temporary blank out where she lashed out at him for everything that he did to her? she couldn't remember anything from around 6pm last night after she had handed Coli to PJ. Oh god! Coil, PJ! what on earth could she tell them? maybe she could make it look like he had done it to himself, she didn't know in her panic and all the irrational thoughts that swirled in her head. In her haste she grabbed the knife and placed it in his left hand, she didn;t know what else to do. She had to make it look like she hadn't done this, she knew she never meant to. looking down at herself she realised what she must have done last night and it made her recoli in disgust and shame, what could she tell PJ? maybe she should act like it never happened but Holly could never do that, she was one of the most honest people unless she had a good reason to lie and this was definetly a good reason to lie about. She didn't know what to do, she had never done anything like this before and she began to confuse herself and her thoughts, although never clear, clouded even more. Quickly she rummaged around the room picking up her disgarded clothes from the night before, how could she have slept with Jay? of all people!? She begged with her superego, her morality principle, to not outbalance her with her ego, her reality principle, about telling PJ. She hoped that she would come to the right conclusion eventually to not to tell him but she knew she would but she didn't want to. She knew he must have done something to her or bribed her with something to do what she did, otherwise she would have never done it in the first place. She quickly pulled her clothes on, although some people who had seen her the day before might wonder why she had the same clothes on from the day before if they saw her before she managed to get to her dorm. She was hysterical inside but tried to keep her cool, act like nothing had happened but she knew that wouldn't be what other people saw. She knew that her fright and panic would be written straight across her face. She pulled the door open quickly and closed it quietly behind her, she didn't want to attract any more attention than she probably already had with her screaming. She could fell herself shaking violently as the images of all the blood and no reaction from Jay as she shouted to him, it made her stomach convulse. She just couldn't stop thinking about all the blood, she had never seen so much in her life and she wasn't the best person around blood. She felt like she couldn't breathe properly as she slowly tiptoed down the corridor. She thought she had walked for what seemed like miles when it was only a couple of steps when her mind became clouded by all her different thoughts again. How could she do that to him, how she she kill somebody? It was beyond any rational thought she had and her mind couldn't take it anymore. She didn't even feel it when she hit the floor, flat out. Fainted.
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Post by Ryuu James on Apr 7, 2008 14:27:33 GMT -5
Ryuu was comfortably sprawled across his bed, one leg dangling off the edge and his arms clutching to the duvet, his sub conscious mind telling him it was slipping away. In fact, the whole duvet had fallen off the bed and only the part he held was still against his body. A dull shriek pierced his light, dream filled sleep, and his eyes blinked open. He dismissed it for someone throwing a pillow at someone else upstairs, as the girls often liked to scream at things. Maybe it was even something as simple as a spider. His sleep clouded mind couldn’t process that the noise had come from the dorm next door. Moaning sleepily, he sat up and rubbed his bright green eyes of sleep, and then yawned. His skin felt cold, and he frowned when he saw his bed cover on the floor. Rolling out of bed, he adjusted his boxers and picked up the duvet. Throwing it onto the bed, he left it to re-arrange later - probably it would be left like that till he went back to bed - and padded into the bathroom.
After a cold shower - bloody girls using up all the hot water again - he walked around his empty dorm with just a towel on, and began to make breakfast. Sitting down at his desk, whilst eating a bowl of dry cereal, he logged into IM and chatted with Jared and some other people he was too tired to recognize, when he heard another scream. He thought it odd, and this time he noticed it was from next door. Dorm 5 to be exact. Jay’s dorm. Ryuu frowned, and set his IM to away. Getting up, he pressed his ear to the wall. He couldn’t hear anything, and was about to ignore it and go back to the computer when he heard someone calling Jay. Her tone of voice sounded close to hysteria, and it sounded hauntingly like Holly’s voice. But that couldn’t be right…What on earth would Holly be doing in Jay’s dorm? A piercing scream followed shortly after the speech, and he swore loudly. Running towards his drawers, he threw on a pair of trousers, and ran out of the dorm.
Still warm from sleep, he felt slightly slow, and looked both ways before remembering which side was Jay’s dorm. He walked slowly towards the door and looked through the key hole. He saw a lot of blood smeared across the carpet, coming from the open bathroom door. The bed was missing the duvet, and he caught a glimpse of what must have been Holly wandering about. He watched, fixed in horror and confusion, as she gathered clothes strewn across the floor. He couldn’t even tear his gaze away as she slipped into her clothes. She seemed in a daze, unable to comprehend prior events.
Before he knew it, she was walking towards the door, and he jumped back, his face flushing. She wrenched open the door and walked past him, in a daze. She was shaking violently, and he took a nervous step towards her. “Holly?” he said softly, reaching out a hand to touch her shoulder. Suddenly, she fell, and he cried out in surprise. He fell to his knees, shaking her shoulder in a fit of panic. “Holly! Holly, wake up!” he yelled, pulling her up to cradle her in his arms. He didn’t know the recovery position, but he knew he had to wake her up some how. “Can you hear me? Please … Don’t do this, Holly,” he pleaded her, his mind racing back to when he’d found her half dead, propped against a wall and drenched in blood. Only then did he notice that she had smears of dried blood on her hand and face - where she’d slept on it - and his blood ran cold. “What the fuck did he do to you, Holly!?” he exclaimed, his body shaking in anger. They all suspected Jay of being the one who had attempted to kill her, and Ryuu was even surer now. He’d tried again, gone for a second go. He held her close, burying his face in her shoulder. This couldn’t be happening…Why did Jay have to go ruin things all the bloody time? Realising that he was still outside Jay’s dorm, he scooped her up into his arms and carried her carefully back to his dorm.
She felt limp and pliable in his hands, as he carefully lay her down on the sofa. He dreaded leaving her side for even a second, but he dashed over to the kitchenette and grabbed a glass of cold water. Hurrying back to her side, he dipped his fingers in the water and splashed some on her face. Maybe that would rouse her? He couldn’t understand why Holly had been in Jay’s room. Why had she been naked? It seemed so bizarre…Although now he thought about it; he had heard screaming late that night. It hadn’t been terrified screaming though. It had been euphoric, pained pleasure that made him feel sick just thinking about whoever was making the noise must have been doing. What interest would Jay have in Holly after he’d obviously stabbed her? All these questions ran though his head, but the most prominent of all was: Had Holly lost it?
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Apr 7, 2008 15:41:22 GMT -5
Holly was numb, her emotions and feeling blocked out, pushed into her unconscious mind so that her mind didn't have to deal with the traumatic experience. Nobody would want to live or re-live what she had just witnessed, it was something like you would see in a horror movie- a gruesome horror movie. Her mind completely blank with no image or nothing, just blackness. Never ever again would she even want to hear the name Jay or anything associated with him, she felt like a common whore and she was already engaged to the best guy in her world, how could she do that to PJ? She knew she would have to tell him, even if it killed her, even if he left her for it she would feel better for having told him. She didn't even feel anything when Ryuu had picked her up and taken her to his dorm, her body laying lifelessly as he did so. The next thing she remotely felt with a cold sensation on her face, a cold tickling feeling. She didn't know what it was. She didn't want to open her eyes, she didn't want to face the fact that she knew she had killed Jay but she knew she would have to face it eventually and she would have to tell somebody, it was just something that she couldn't keep to herself. She knew she would eventually blurt it out. Although as she felt that cold wet sensation on her face again she, reluctantly, slowly fluttered her eyes open. Where was she now? She really did feel ike a living dolly, easily transported anywhere without your own knowledge, she felt really weird, it was a feeling she had never felt before and she couldn't even begin to describe it, she just felt weird, maybe because she was still involuntary shaking and she felt likes her nerves had been shot. She looked up and realised that she was in a different room this time, she felt like she was Alice in Wonderland and that everything and anything around her could always be different and was always different, she felt like she could never keep up a stable situation in her life. There were too many twists and turns in her life for her own liking, she just wanted to be happy and live happily ever after like all the Princesses do and her nickname from PJ was Princess, so why not act and think like one? She looked around her for a minute with lifeless, devoid of emotion, eyes. And that's when she spotted Ryuu directly in front of her, he looked a bit concerned and confused. For a minute she almost forgot what had happened, although the last thing she could remember was coming out of Jay's dorm and closing the door behind her and then nothing, so why was she in Ryuu's dorm all of a sudden? she really did feel like her world had went topsy turvey . "What happened?" she mumbled faintly, she didn't even know if she was making sense to herself, it was almost as if se refused to accept what she thought she had done.
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