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Post by Holly Kennedy on Mar 8, 2008 18:14:45 GMT -5
Holly had been sitting talking to the guys on the IM. She felt that they had been saying the most stupid of things, things that weren't of an interest to her and she became quickly annoyed. Anything or most things she had typed into the IM all the guys were saying that it hwas her 'hormones' now. Just because she was pregnant now doesn't mean that anything she comes out with is the influence of her hormones, although she felt like it was, alot. She didn't know if she should punch her computer or kick the door or something. She then gave up on that and felt like she wanted to scream, she had been wanting to scream for ages now. She needed to calm herself down but she didn't know how. Maybe if she were to talk about her problems with somebody or just have somebody there with her she would calm down. It was never ever like Holly to come across as agressive in anyway so it was quite obvious that it was probably resulted from her new hormones and she hated feeling like this, she knew she just needed a hug. She back away from her computer, afraid of saying something really nasty to her friends. She jumped into the middle of her bed and sat with her legs in a basket and just looked around trying to think of happy nice things that would help to being her back to the real Princess Holly. She loved the name Princess for her because she always felt like a Princess and it was her nickname from PJ. |
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Post by nate on Mar 8, 2008 19:08:27 GMT -5
[/b] He said with a half smile. Honestly, Phoenix couldn't have told you where he was going, he just knew this was familiar... this.. hallway. He had been here before. And this door, he had seen it before too. A solid number six stood in the center right at eyes level, and he looked at it a moment before knocking on the door, wondering who would open it. Standing there, He ran his hand through his heair and stumbled back. He hadn't had much. Only three glasses of the strongest alcohol they owned at Sierra, nothing that would do Ryuu in, then again... PJ wasn't Ryuu. Phoenix couldn't hold down much alcohol to save his life. He wondered how he didn't get that trait from his father. His father was damn good at drinking..... a lot. The thought of a kid was off his mind right now. It was back in the farthest corner... exactly where he wanted it.[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Mar 8, 2008 19:29:02 GMT -5
Holly sat on her bed trying to make herself think of happy things, she hated feeling this stange and angry, but she had nothing or nobody to be angry at so she couldn't understand. She had alreadt screamed once today and even the boys in the next corridor heard her, even Ryuu said he thought it was a dying animal that was screaming she screamed that loud.
She heard somebody know at her door, should she answer it?, she would probably end up punching them with the mood she was in, even if they did nothing or say nothing. She sighed and stood up from her bed and walked slowly over to the door, hesitant to open the door. She took a deep breath and tried to calm herself down and pulled the door open in one quick motion.
She felt like her mood had been melted away , sort of, when she saw Phoenix standing at her door. She hadn't seen him in ages, not since she talked to him in at the Riverside and she had a feeling that he was trying to avoid her now, obviously not she thought.
Before she said anything she looked at him sternly, it was just the way he was standing- the auora about him. She felt that he didn't really want to be there, she felt a bit confused. However, she smiled because he was here, even if he did seem a bit hostile towards her.
She didn't say anything, she knew she didn't have to say anything. She grabbed his hand and pulled him over the threshold to her dorm and closed the door quietly.
"Are you alright?" she asked concerned.
She knew that something wasn't right, she couldn't pick it out but she knew something must be bothering him. |
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Post by nate on Mar 8, 2008 19:41:06 GMT -5
[/b] He glanced at her, brown eyes glazed over and shining, mostly from the hazy state he was in " I love you.. Have I told you..... recently?"He asked, leaning forward, his words coming forth in slurrs before he fell back into a sitting position on the bed. he laughed softly and sighed, Looking at Holly "I'm.. drunk"He said with a laugh. He was out of it. Completely and totally out of it. He was doing what he had seen his father do to take away his worries. Doing whatever he could to make himself think of somethign better.[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Mar 8, 2008 19:59:41 GMT -5
Holly didn't understand why Phoenix was like the way he was, it was just something different about him that she didn't recognise, he was in a state that she had never seen him in before and it scared her a little.
"You...think you're alright?" she asked
She was completely confused by him, although she had been living in her own little world, her little bubble for the past day or two.
" I love you.. Have I told you..... recently?"
Holly laughed cautiously at his question. It was the way that he spoke that she thought was strange, she had never heard him talk the way he was talking just now.
"You tell me you love me all the time PJ" she laughed a little
She watched as he stumbled over to her bed and almost fell down on top it. She sighed with a sad defeated tone when he said he was drunk, but he laughed about it, she knew by just being Phoenix that it wasn't something to laugh about.
"Why PJ?, why would you do that to yourself?" she asked softly but with annoyance behind it as she sat next to him on her bed. |
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Post by nate on Mar 9, 2008 20:45:50 GMT -5
[/b] He replied, leaning his head back against the wall. The room was spinning. He had no clue as to what he was doing.. or why he was even here. Why he was drunk. "I don't see what he likes about it" He added, talking about his father. Watching Holly laugh, he smirked and laid his head down on the pillow, ignoring her last statement, about him doing this to himself. It was how his father did things. Drink away your problems. Phoenix had definately drank away his problems, and half his consciouness with it. He was confused as thoughts started reappearing in his mind. words such as Preganant.. and Ryuu saying the first step was to stay in the country. Sure.. he could have left. He could have hauled his ass back to Italy, but Phoenix wasn't like that. He may have been completely trashed and lost, afraid he would screw everything up somehow, but he was no deserter.[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Mar 10, 2008 9:47:22 GMT -5
Holly watch with cautious eyes as Phoenix lay back against her bed, she was glad that it was in the corner against the wall or he might have fell off the end. She was slightly scared by his actions and just the way he carried himself, the way he spoke. She had never seen him like this before and I don't think many people ever did. She was just glad he came to her dorm and not anybody else's. It had seemed that her role was now about to reverse because it was PJ that was drunk this time and not her, she laughed slightly at this, remembering the last time with him.
"PJ, talk to me!" she said exasperately
"You're starting to scare me"
She couldn't understand why he would do this to himself, but she had a slight idea and she thought it was the most stupid thing he could have done and she knew the Ryuu was probably behind it somewhere because PJ never or hardly drank and never enough to make him drunk. |
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Post by nate on Mar 10, 2008 11:08:08 GMT -5
[/b] He asked, closing his eyes and scrunching up his nose slightly, thinking maybe that would make the double vision go away. Man. He hated this feeling. Why did he have to go and drink himself silly. "your starting to scare me."Glancing over, he looked at Holly. He didn't want to do this. He didn't want to be like his father "Holly.. I'm gonna be a... daddy. Ya know... I wanna be a good one, but I don't know....if I can." It had been the first thing on his mind when he had started drinking, however he hadn't really realized that he was talking about it now. To him.. he was just rambling.[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Mar 10, 2008 11:28:54 GMT -5
Holly knew this would be like it was a couple of weeks ago when she had been drunk slightly and had to go back to PJ's dorm, although it was the other way around now. She wasn't going to let him leave in the state he was in, she had never seen him like this and it scared her a little. Although she couldn't help but feel a slight sympathy for him, she knew it must be hard on him, knowing that he was going to be a dad.
"I want to talk about why you're like this!"
"It's not like you PJ"
She wanted to hear what he had to say for himself because she wasn't too happy with him just now.
"Holly.. I'm gonna be a... daddy. Ya know... I wanna be a good one, but I don't know....if I can."
Once she heard that from him she sighed in defeated, she didn't really know what to say to him but she knew he would be the opposite to what he had just said. She moved from the bottom of her bed and lay beside him, wrapping an arm around his middle in a side hug.
"You're going to be the best daddy ever PJ, don't even think for a second that you won't be, okay?" she whispered in his ear
She wanted him to be happy about the fact that he was going to be a daddy. She had gotten over the freak out stage, sort of, and she was really happy about being a mommy now. She knew she was bit young but she knew it would happen eventually so why not start early? |
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Post by nate on Mar 10, 2008 11:36:06 GMT -5
[/b] He shrugged again, knowing that she was most likely furious with him. He couldn.'t completely understand why. Well if it was him... and Holly had come up drunk, he would have been furious, with her being pregnant and all, but he wasn't pregnant, so what did it matter. "Are you mad?" He asked, turning to face her as she laid down next to him, wrapping her arm around him in a hug, He draped his arm over her too, instinctively. "alcohol has a horrible aftertaste... no one told me that" He muttered, Hearing what she said about him being a dad, but not really knowing how to answer.[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Mar 10, 2008 11:54:14 GMT -5
Holly thought it was so stupid for Phoenix to do what he did, although she had been drunk on more than one account this year so she really couldn't yell at him for something she had already done herself.
"Alcohol does not solve problems PJ, it only holds them back for a while, so why bother?" she asked casually but with an annoyed tone
"and no I'm not mad, just surprised at you" she said softly
" Not all alcohol has a bad aftertaste, so what exactly did you drink?" she laughed a little
She had a small voice at the back of her head wanting to know exactly waht his problem was, she thought they were good and all.
"This problem of yours..." she trailed off
" It's not that you think you'll be a dad like your own is it?"
"Because that is the most stupid thing ever" |
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Post by nate on Mar 10, 2008 12:02:43 GMT -5
[/b] He retorted, opening his eyes breifly to look at her before closing them again, trying to think back on what he had. He was honest, even when he was drunk "umm... The strongest liquor they had... three glasses of it" He said sheepishly, rubbing his forhead "and Ryuu had some kind of... alco pop.. something green" He was suprised he even remembered what he had drank, let alone what Ryuu had. At her next question, he grew oddly silent not looking up at her. He felt like a kid that had done something wrong and was getting scowlded for it. He looked down at the cover on the bed, thinking for a moment. "I don't know...maybe" He finally said, not looking up.[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Mar 10, 2008 12:20:20 GMT -5
Holly shook her head as she told her his story, she really couldn't believe that he would do something that stupid, especially over something that couldn't be helped or forgotten. Although she almost laughed when he said he felt stupid.
"Darn right you look stupid. The way you walked in here..." she laughed a little
"...you can hardly stand up straight" she smiled sarcastically as she tapped the top of his nose. She also knew that Ryuu would be behind in in someway or another, whenever there was any alcohol around Ryuu was never far away, she was surprised when he would actually leave Sierra sometimes.
She sat up, loosening her grip from him and she stared down at him.
"Ryuu got you like this?! She half shouted
"Just wait till I get my hands on that...ugh!
She couldn't believe that he had even thought that he would be like his own dad was towards his own child. She stood up off the bed and walked across to the other side of the room, folding her arms. She wanted to just turn her back to him but she knew she couldn't do that.
"PJ, listen to me, alright?!
"You are not going to be like him, you are going to be the best dad ever, I know you will be, so please stop thinking like that!" |
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Post by nate on Mar 10, 2008 12:58:51 GMT -5
[/b] He said, nodding his head slowly before smiling weakly "I feel like my head weighs 500 pounds by itself" He smirked, but closed his eyes again, only opening them to glance at Holly as she got up off the bed and walked to the other side of the room. She looked mad, and rather upset with him, he didn't blame her. He had been stupid going and getting himself plastered. He had never liked drinking anyhow. "Ok.. I'm just..." He paused and looked at her "Scared" He finished.[/size][/ul] |
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Mar 10, 2008 13:16:41 GMT -5
Holly felt a little better after he told her that it wasn't Ryuu that made him the way he is, she was surprised Ryuu didn't try to force any drink down him.
"well....that's good then, I guess"
She shook her head in disaspointment when he told her that his head felt really heavy, she knew the feeling all too well.
"well you don't say!"
"That's what happens when you down the strongest stuff you can!"
"Enlighten me Phoenix, was it worth it?"
She kinda felt bad for shouting at him, she didn't mean to, it's just the way it came out. She walked over and sat back on the bottom on her bed and let her arms fall to her sides. She had to admit she was a little scared too but she didn't want to show it to anybody, that's why everybody thought that she was overly excited about her baby, she was but not to the extent that people thought she was happy about it.
"You're scared?, don't you think I'm scared too?" she asked a bit softer than she had before. |
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