That's What You Get ...♥..[PJ/open]

[Holly Kennedy]

Holly had just phoned PJ, telling him that she had something to tell him. She thought it was the biggest thing in her life that she would ever have to tell anybody and she never thought she'd be doing it at such a young age. She found it more frightening than having to tell her parents that she was getting married or something, because that anybody could be happy about but Holly didn't know if her news was happy or not, she hadn't come to that conclusion yet. She hoped that eventually people will accept it and that it could be happy news.
Clad in her pink tartan mini skirt and her pink Paramore tshirt with her favourite ballet pump shoes she slowly walked to the Riverside where she told PJ that she would meet him. She finally arrived there but she felt like turning back, she was to scared to tell him. She knew he would freak out and that would make her freak out too- and that was the last thing she needed to do. She didn't want to feel worse than she already did. She found an empty bright red bench next to the water and she sat hesitantly onto it. She kept playing with her fingers and crossing and uncrossing her legs, she couldn't stay still, she was so scared and nervous, but she would wait for PJ to come. Afterall he did have a right to know and the others had all told her to tell him.

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[/b] He said lightly as he approached her, taking a seat next to her on the bench."sorry, I didn't get here sooner. I had to take it out with dad to leave"[/size][/ul]

[Holly Kennedy]

Holly sat in her own little world, trying to think of ways that she could tell him. She had lots of possibilities in her mind but she knew that she would say something she hadn't even thought of when she actually told him, she knew she would just blurt it out through her nerves and the anticipation. She knew that if she never told him he would eventually see for himself. Although she felt that her situation was a million times worse than other people, her friends, thought it was. She felt like she was the only one and that nobody else would understand.
She saw PJ come up beside her and she vaguely looked in his direction, she felt like she couldn't look him in the eye. She knew he would be dissapointed in her and she felt like it was all her fault. She felt him sit next to her on the bench and she sighed, might as well get it over with. She knew if she held it in any longer she might start to cry; something not in her control, most of the time. She loved PJ and she hoped he loved her enough not to completely freak out about it. She looked up at him with a nervous smile and looked back down to her hands that were still twisting together.
"I'm pregnant PJ" she said in a tiny whisper. She just hoped it was enough for him to hear, she didn't want to have to say it again. Her situation was already too real for her liking.

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[/i] If He hadn't been sitting down, He was pretty sure he would have stumbled back in shock. His mouth opened slightly, but no words came out. It was as if someone was choking him and he couldn't do anything about it. He noticed that she had been avoiding him somewhat lately, but he hadn't thought anything of it. Taking a moment, she hadn't said it was his baby... Then again, She hadn't said that it wasn't either. He was completely shocked and new he should say something, but he could find nothing to say. Nothing comforting anyways. Normally he could come out quickly with something sweet and helpful, but this was a completely different situation. He almost didn't want to believe it.

"umm" He muttered softly. rubbing the back of his head " Is it mine?" He asked, Not trying to incinuate anything. He figured it probably was. Man, He had screwed up. Part of him was screaming that it was his fault. She had been drunk and he was supposed to be taking care of her, not screwing her. He Partially blamed himself. They had only done it once, He guessed once was enough to screw up their lives. Then again, maybe it wasn't such a bad thing... He wasn't sure.[/size][/ul]

[Holly Kennedy]

Holly sat there, she knew she wanted to cry but her tears just wouldn't come, she could feel them briming at the edge of her eyes but that was it. She didn't want to look up to see his reaction, she knew he would be shocked but she felt terrified. She felt like going into her own little bubble that nobody could interrupt. She tried to bit her lip to stop her from crying at PJ's unusual reaction, but it wasn't enough just to bite her lip and her one by one some of the tears she had been holding in had slowly escaped her eyes and rolled down her cheeks. She looked up at him, she didn't no if she should laugh or cry further.
"Of course it's yours PJ"
She thought his reaction was strange, not what she expected. She thought he would start shouting and calling her everything under the sun, that's what she felt like aswell.
"You think it would be anybody else's?" she asked a bit harsher than she wanted to

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[/b] He added softly. Feeling his heart race within his chest as he rested his hands on his lap. He was confused as to what to say, or do. He didn't know if he should be happy or upset. it was something new.[/size][/ul]

[Holly Kennedy]

Holly felt him attempt to wipe her tears away but they wouldn't stop flowing. It was like she had them all bottled up from days ago when she found out and now they were just all coming at once. Or maybe it was tears of fear, she really thought it was strange that PJ reacted in the way he did. She had it stuck in her mind that he would totally freak out and completely disown her, maybe she was wrong. She knew of the stupid rumor that was going around about her and Ryuu, after finding out about it from him on the IM, she thought it was the most ridiculous thing she ever heard, they were best friends and he was only there to comfort her- nothing else, although some people had other ideas, she thought it was sick.
"You better have not believed it" she said as she looked up to him
"It's the most stupid thing I ever heard"
"and I'm sorry, I didn't mean to shout"
"But I don't get it, no freaking out?" she asked a bit confused.

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[/b] He defended, Leaning back against the bench. He as if he were to stand up, he would simple pass out or fall over one. Glancing at her, He sulked slightly. He hated seeing her cry, :Hated seeing her sad or upset at all. Wrapping his arms around her, He pulled her into a hug. She could probably easily tell that he was shaking.

"But I don't get it, no freaking out?" [/b]
"Oh. no... I'm freaking out... more than you can imagine. I just figure its not best to freak out in front of you... probably the last thing you need." He muttered. His insides were churning. He honestly didn't know how to be boyfriend with a kid on the way... much less a dad. This was mainly his fault and he had no way of fixing it. He was simply and utterly confused.[/size][/ul]

[Holly Kennedy]

Holly thought it was so stupid for anybody to belive that stupid rumor that was going round, it didn't even make sense and she was glad that the one person she didn't want to believe it didn't believe it.
She didn't know how she should feel, shocked or happy because PJ's reactionwas nothing like she had expected, although she knew she could feel happy about it now- now that she had told the one person that she had been dreading telling. There was nobody else that she was scared of telling now, apart from Aaron, but she would never tell him because hew would go running to their parents like the stupid idiot he was.
She fely PJ pulling her into a hug, she was happy for this. She knew that he cared now and that was wasn't going to abandon her like any other guy would. Although she thought he had a strange way of 'freaking out' if he was, like he told her. She laughed a little when he said that freakign out in front of her was the last thing she needed.
"PJ, you might as well completely freak out now" she laughed a little
"You should get over freaking out and be happy" she smiled