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Post by Ryuu James on Apr 13, 2008 11:40:36 GMT -5
Ryuu leant back in his chair, grinding the heals of his palms into his eyes in frustration. He had only been kidding around with Hart on instant messenger. He wasn’t the one who’d gone making out with other people. Sighing, he stood up and paced, trying to work off his mounting anger. How could Irja just let Jared do that? Irja wasn’t that kind of guy…was he? God, Ryuu didn’t even know…But if Irja was still with that freaky Fly dude, he wouldn’t have the guts to do something like that. Irja was a very honest guy; he couldn’t handle guilt like Ryuu could. Running his hands through his hair and sighing deeply, he decided to go on a mission…
With his hands shoved deep in his pockets, he paced the boy’s corridor a couple of times before finally building up the courage to knock on Jared’s door. Bouncing on the balls of his feet, he sighed nervously, and arranged his hair quickly. He wasn’t sure how to treat Jared, but he was going to go for the ‘act like nothing happened’ approach that he oh so often brought up. It was the least difficult one, that’s for sure. If he was lucky, the fact they hadn’t seen each other for five days would make all resentfulness clear away as soon as the door opened.
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Post by Jared Miles Platt on Apr 13, 2008 12:02:29 GMT -5
[/i]... but, still) when he started to flirt with Hart. Reading the IMs made Jared feel as if he had been shot straight through the heart. Ryuu had just left the IM and, while making conversation with Holly about PJ and her new baby 'Coli, Jared heard a knock at his door. He sighed. He knew exactly who it was. Oh... what was he going to say? He was pretty positive Ryuu knew what he was about to bring up on IM, which was the thing about kissing Irja without full sanity. Jared logged off of IM. He rose up out of his seat and slowly walked over to the door. He hesitated to open it, but he did. Ryuu stood there before him. "Hey...," Jared greeted weakly. [/sub][/ul][/font] |
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Post by Ryuu James on Apr 13, 2008 12:11:45 GMT -5
Ryuu crossed his arms, and shifted his weight about on his feet whilst waiting for Jared to open the door. He wondered if Jared even would open the door. It wasn’t like Ryuu deserved it…Just when he was about to start thinking about weather to give up or knock again, Jared opened the door. Ryuu’s stomach clenched. Jared looked a bit dishevelled, and Ryuu had to pause to gather his thoughts again before speaking.
“Hey, babes,” he returned a plastic looking smile, and hesitantly stepped forwards and pulled Jared into a tight hug. He felt happy that he was with Jared again after so long, but then he felt worried that Jared would brush him off or get mad. Carefully placing a kiss on Jared’s cheek, he smiled weakly.
“You okay?” he asked quietly, still holding him.
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Post by Jared Miles Platt on Apr 13, 2008 12:36:20 GMT -5
[/color] he said in the same tone as he did when he had opened the door and greeted Ryuu. What he said wasn't true, though, and he knew it. Jared had a knot in his stomach right now, and it felt like it was getting tighter and tighter. Finally, he said something more truthful, "Actually, I'm not too happy right now. I think you know that..."That just put more knots in his stomach, though. [/sub][/ul][/font] |
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Post by Ryuu James on Apr 13, 2008 12:46:04 GMT -5
Ryuu was pleasantly surprised when Jared’s arms wound their way round him, and he wondered if he was in the clear. However, when Jared spoke, his bubble burst, and he frowned. Placing a flattened palm in the small of Jared’s back, he gently pushed him inside, closing the door behind them. He could see this getting nasty…
“Right…” Ryuu muttered. Resisting the urge to slide his hand down Jared’s pants or something, he walked over to the window and stared down at the court yard for a moment, before turning back to face Jared and pulling himself up onto the windowsill.
“I don’t know what your problem is. I’m not the one who’s been making out with other people,” his tone was bitter, and he started drumming his finger on the windowsill, fuelled by frustrated energy.
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Post by Jared Miles Platt on Apr 13, 2008 13:25:52 GMT -5
[/i] feel sick. Maybe he was even actually sick. Ryuu's bitter tone made him feel extremely uneasy, but he knew exactly what to say back to him. "I was more drunk than I could've handled, Ry," Jared scoffed, and to his surprise, he sounded provocative, "You weren't when you started up with Hart. Are you...," Jared dreaded the question, but asked anyway, "...Are you tired of me or something?" He then sat on his bed and put a hand to his face, sliding it down nervously. Was his relationship with Ryuu about to end? Since he and Irja's incident, he had been having second thoughts about being with Ryuu... though he felt awfully guilty about it. Maybe it was time to take a break? All Jared knew was that it would hurt him too much to be the one to announce it. [/sub][/ul][/font] |
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Post by Ryuu James on Apr 13, 2008 14:26:27 GMT -5
Ryuu couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Shaking his head, he avoided looking at Jared. He didn’t want to feel guilty, because then he’d just grovel and apologize like he always did.
“Okay, yeah what-” he started, sounding angry, but then Jared spoke up again. Snapping his head round, he made furious eye contact with him.
“For god’s sake! Ever heard of having a laugh? Or are you so up your own ass you can’t see past your jealousy?” he growled, his brows knitted together in frustration. The next thing Jared said felt like a blow to the stomach. He made a strangled sound that sounded a bit like ‘no’, but he was too taken aback by Jared’s assumption to try saying it again.
“Jared…wh-...why do you think that?” his voice was almost inaudible, choked with despair.
He didn’t know what to think, or say. This was the second argument they’d had about faith in an alarmingly short time. But he didn’t want to give up Jared - no, Ryuu was far too selfish for that - and he bit his lip in indecision. Standing up slowly, he walked over to the bed and sat down next to Jared. His whole body screamed in protest, but he put an arm round Jared’s shoulders and pulled him close.
“I’m so sorry Jared…I’ve been useless at understanding you…” he sighed, turning his head to press his forehead against Jared’s, bright green eyes staring intensely into his. He parted his lips slightly, making to kiss Jared, but he clamped them shut before he could even get close. He could feel his eyes burning with tears, salty pangs tearing at his heart. Biting the inside of his lip, he sighed through his nose deeply, still unable to take his eyes off Jared’s.
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Post by Jared Miles Platt on Apr 13, 2008 16:13:09 GMT -5
[/i][/color] but decided to drop that subject for now. It shocked Jared excessively that Ryuu was now sitting beside him with his arm around him, pulling him close. Once again, Jared didn't attempt to struggle free. "I’m so sorry Jared…I’ve been useless at understanding you…" Ryuu's forehead was now touching up against Jared's own. Jared still didn't know at all what to think, or to say. His brown eyes just stared into Ryuu's green ones, which seemed to be tearing up now. Jared closed his eyes, turning his head away. He couldn't bear it. [/ul][/font][/sub] |
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Post by Ryuu James on Apr 14, 2008 1:44:23 GMT -5
He closed his eyes, breathing deeply through his mouth, feeling the rush of air between his lips calming him down. The tearing of his eyes didn’t overflow, but nor did it clear away. Opening his eyes again, he saw Jared was looking away, and carefully took his chin in his thumb and forefinger. Pulling Jared’s lips towards his own, he parted Jared’s lips with his in a soft kiss, breath dancing across their skin.
“Jared…I-” he bit back what he was going to say, feeling the corners of his mouth pull down as he fought off tears. Would he have been more forgiving if Jared had gone off with someone other than Irja? Unfortunately, Ryuu had to answer yes to that. It was quite clear that Jared had been extraordinarily drunk, and Irja had made no effort to push him off. This was what made Ryuu the angriest, Irja was being a prick, and trying to get Jared. He just knew it - although Ryuu really was the jealous type, especially when it came to his brother, so he was probably just exaggerating. Taking a deep breath, he decided there was no point delaying.
“I think…maybe it would be best if …” he trailed off, totally loosing his nerve. He tried again,
“Maybe we should…just be friends…” he murmured quietly, running his hand down Jared’s arm and resting on Jared’s hand for a moment, before he shuffled away.
“I’m sorry…” he sighed, getting up, making for the door. This time a tear did escape, and he didn’t bother wiping it away.
[eew Dx it’s so horrible ._. Don’t kill me ‘A’]
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Post by Jared Miles Platt on Apr 14, 2008 16:06:38 GMT -5
[/color] and nodded slowly. A tear escaped, and Jared did not bother to wipe it away. All this was bound to happen someday, Jared knew. [/font][/sub][/ul] |
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Post by Ryuu James on Apr 15, 2008 7:10:17 GMT -5
Ryuu felt numb. He couldn’t make himself understand anything as he pushed open the door and left the room. A wave of horror washed over him as he realised what was happening, and he buried his face in his hands, trying to control his breathing. It was all he could do to stop himself breaking down. All he wanted to do was go to bed and sulk. He didn’t know what else to do. Walking unseeingly back to his dorm, he suddenly turned and lashed out at the wall, hitting it with all his strength. The paintings hanging on the wall shuddered and he grunted in pain, gritting his teeth against the throbbing in his hand as he cradled it to his chest, brow crumpled in frustration. He was determined to get over this, he’d never cared before. He always ended it at the first sign of shaky ground. Why was this any different?
[the end Dx what a short thread ._.]
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Post by Jared Miles Platt on Apr 16, 2008 5:46:05 GMT -5
Well, we wanted it to be short, didn't we? x)
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Post by wowposter on Nov 8, 2008 9:32:20 GMT -5
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