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Post by Ryuu James on Feb 27, 2008 15:59:18 GMT -5
After receiving a worrying call from Holly, Ryuu had grabbed the spare key to her dorm and hurried down a level to the girl’s dorms. He passed a couple of girls who looked at him curiously, and as he shoved the key into the lock for Holly’s dorm and jiggled it impatiently, they started muttering. Everyone knew what Ryuu going into someone else’s dorm normally meant, and this was a girl’s dorm. Which was going against all the gossip that had been passing around recently what with the Alex/Ryuu thing in the pub. Sighing in exasperation, Ryuu glared at the girls just as he got the door open, and hurried inside.
Ryuu wasn’t sure what he’d been expecting, but it wasn’t this. Maybe he thought Holly had fallen and broken something and couldn’t move, or was violently ill or something he could see. Something physical. But no, Holly was on her bed, crying her eyes out. This was just fucking fantastic. Ryuu was no help with advice, but he dutifully went about his best friend duties, and sat down on the bed next to Holly, pulling her into a hug so that she could cry into his chest like best friends did.
“Hey babes. What’s the matter?” he asked softly, running a hand through her hair soothingly.
[awee ^¬^ Ryuu's such a teddy bear <3]
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Feb 27, 2008 16:22:31 GMT -5
Holly lay crying on her bed, she didn't know what to think but her head kept swimming with ideas, ideas to her that were stupid to her but in some ways logical. She couldn't help but think that she was pregnant. She did love children and babies but she was only 17 and she didn't want to ruin her life and he knew she'd regret the day when she had to tell her parents, they would be so dissapointed in her. She lay with her legs almost tucked under her chin she was curled into such a small ball.
She didn't even hear the door opening at all or any other noises apart from her sobs and hiccups. She just felt somebody puling her up into a hug, she knew it was Ryuu right away. Usually when in Ryuu's prescence she would be hyper and happy like he always was but this just wasnt the real Holly he was hugging. Nobody ever saw Holly cry, it was just something that nobody even considered her to do because she was always so happy and cheerful.
“Hey babes. What’s the matter?”
She looked up at him with her redshot eyes and hiccuped again.
"Oh Ryuu!" she yelled hysterically as she tried to hug him tighter. She needed somebody to be with her just now, somebody she knew she could trust. |
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Post by Ryuu James on Feb 27, 2008 16:28:36 GMT -5
Ryuu rocked her slightly, murmuring calming nothings into her hair which was a mess, probably from tossing in bed or something.
“Holly, please. What’s the matter?” he tried to push away his rising panic, and sense of déjà vu. This had a fearsome resemblance to when Claire…he shoved away the thought, and continued to hush her, rocking almost hypnotically. He was sure the girls who had seen him rush into Holly’s dorm had their ears against the door, and even thought he saw an eye through the key hole. After a while, he took her shoulders firmly, and held her at arm’s length, his acid green eyes blazing into her puffy red ones.
“Now, take a deep breath and tell me what’s wrong. You’re starting to scare me,” he tried to smile, but it didn’t reach his eyes.
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Feb 27, 2008 16:46:11 GMT -5
“Holly, please. What’s the matter?”
Holly didn't really know how to answer his question, she didn't know if anything was really wrong with her. Maybe she just got her dates mixed up and she wasn't late afterall, but she was never like that. She tried to speak but nothing came out, only a high pitched squeak.
“Now, take a deep breath and tell me what’s wrong. You’re starting to scare me,”
Holly sat for a moment and tried to compose herself but her tears just wouldn't stop flowing even if she tried to stop them. She took a long shaky breath and tried to wipe some tears from her face with the side of her hand.
"I'm sorry I didn't believe you before Ryuu" she muttered in a whispered sob
She tried to get out her next part of her sentance out quickly but nothing came out. It was almost like if she said it out loud it would seem more realistic. She took anoher shaky breath and tried to get the next part out quickly before she stopped again.
"I..I th..th..think I'm m..m..might be p..pregnant" she muttered againa before breaking down into tears again. |
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Post by Ryuu James on Feb 27, 2008 16:53:53 GMT -5
Ryuu frowned, stroking her hair still. It was so silky soft and pretty. So was her face, but he knew that it was nothing more than admiration. He’d never love Holly like that.
“Didn’t believe me about what, hun?” he asked, slightly confused. She seemed reluctant to say something, and he felt the knots in his stomach from two years ago re-appear, forming rocks. The words sank in, and he stared at her, mouth slightly open. He didn’t know what to say. Gushing and sympathising over her was useless. She already knew that he understood exactly how it felt. Well…not quite, but near enough.
“Well…Fuck…” he couldn’t think of anything else to say, so he swore. It was the least painful thing. He pulled her into a close embrace, breathing deeply, trying to stay calm for her. Hello guilty flashbacks, nice to see you again.
“Do you want me to go with you to the chemist?” he asked softly, stroking her back. No words would calm her down right now, he’d already made that mistake and had his head bitten off.
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Feb 28, 2008 11:50:45 GMT -5
Holly tried to stop her sobs, she knew that there wasn't a lot she could do about now. She tried to smile a bit but it was the smallest smile. She thought it was ironic in a way of her situation and what Ryuu had said to her several times.
" you always said that 'it all ends up in babies' " she tried to laugh a little behind it, she wanted to bring her real self back, the happy giggly Holly but it might take a while.
She sat for a minute, lost in her own thoughts, when she felt Ryuu hug her again. She never realised how much of a best friend he was, she knew he really cared.
“Do you want me to go with you to the chemist?”
Holly knew that she would eventually have to go there for a test but she didn't want to because the more she thought things like that the more real it seemed to her and she didn't want it to be real, not at this point in her life.
She slowly but shakily nodded her head silently into Ryuu's chest as she tried to hug him back. |
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Post by Ryuu James on Feb 28, 2008 12:42:08 GMT -5
He almost wanted to cry with her when she tried to laugh. It sounded so broken and hopeless.
“Okay, come on then. I know you don’t want to hear this from me, or anyone, but it’ll be okay. I promise. I’m here for you, and PJ will be too, and so will Reagan and Liam, Alex, Astoria, everyone,” he smiled encouragingly, rubbing her shoulder, before standing up and holding out his hands to help her up. Although he was smiling, he felt petrified for her inside. He knew this fear, that sense of dread, the feeling that everything had been bared off from you. Except he’d just taken the easy option and run away. Maybe helping Holly out would balance his karma back out or something like that. What ever the cost, he’d stick by his friend, because he couldn’t bear to see her loose everything.
“We can get a pizza or something too, I’m starving,” he grinned sheepishly, and put a hand in his pocket, feeling for his car keys and clutching them hard.
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Feb 28, 2008 15:35:53 GMT -5
Holly wanted to hug Ryuu forever, she didn't know what to do or say to show him how much he meant to her, he was like a second brother to her- one that loved and cared for her and not one that was always way too protective like Aaron was.
"You promise it will all be okay?" she asked with a clearer smle then before
" I know people will be there for me Ry"
She knew that she had loads of friends who would stick by her, who would help her with anything and she was grateful for this, all her friends were like her family. Although she paniced a little when he mentioned PJ, she didn't want him to know.
"but Ryuu, please don't tell PJ!" she whined
She stood up with the help of Ryuu as he held his hand out, she knew that she would collapase with nerves if she didn't have his hand to hold her up.
“We can get a pizza or something too, I’m starving,”
She laughed a little at his comment. Maybe things weren't as bad as she thought they seemed, she could get through it and even easier with the help of her friends.
"Is that all you think about Ryuu...food?" she smiled a little |
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Post by Ryuu James on Feb 28, 2008 15:43:25 GMT -5
He nodded firmly; he knew it’d be okay. It had to be. It wasn’t like she was going to die or anything, and if worst came to worst he’d drive her to the hospital and get an abortion. No one would ever know about it and it’d all be fine. Somehow he highly doubted that. Women seemed very reluctant to do that, even though they fretted and moaned and cried about having a baby. Ryuu could never understand women, so he just went for men.
“You’ll have to tell him eventually,” he said, putting an arm round her and walking her over to the door. The sound of muffled giggles from the other side faded away as the two spying girls ran off. Sighing, he opened the door and sort of side stepped out, because he still had his arm round Holly.
“No, but maybe you should think about it more. It’ll take your mind off other things. You need a bit of cheering up, and what better than junk food?” he grinned; glad the mood had lightened, even if it was only on the surface. He got out his cigarettes, and then frowned. How inconsiderate. As they passed the bin at the top of the stairs, he tossed the packet away, and smiled to himself. If he helped Holly out with her problem, maybe he could easily give up smoking. Holly’s problem was far worse than not breathing in toxic fumes all day. He could do it easily.
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Feb 28, 2008 16:14:58 GMT -5
Holly could hear laughing or giggling or somebody on the other side of the door to her dorm, why would people be on the other side of her door unless it was Regan or something, afterall their dorm was near the eand of the corridor and only people who lived here would want to walk down this far, so why would there be people outside her door?
She was almost outside the door when she heard Ryuu saying that she would have to tell PJ, she paniced again.
"No Ryuu, he can't know. What he doesn't know can't hurt him. Besides there's on way he would know unless I told him, which I'm not"
They walked out the door and she felt comforted by Ryuu's arm around her, it felt like there would always be somebody there for her. Although she didn't understand why there was a bunch of younger students running away laughing.
"I should think about food more?" she asked with a slight laugh
"Are you trying to call me skinny?"
"But yeah I could be cheered up about now" she said with a half smile |
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Post by Ryuu James on Feb 28, 2008 16:33:40 GMT -5
Sighing heavily, he stopped and pulled Holly round to face him, his hands firm on her shoulders.
“PJ is the dad, you can’t just pretend he’s not. He’s going to freak, but he’ll want to know. Trust me, I’ve been there,” he said, his eyes fixed on hers, willing her to believe him. The thought of PJ not knowing anything about this made his stomach churn, thinking of Claire and his own child. He didn’t know anything about his child, he didn’t even know if Claire decided to keep it. He assumed she did, because Claire wasn’t the kind of person to quit at anything. Turning his eyes down to the floor, he released his grip, putting his arm round her shoulders again and looking down at the stairs as they descended.
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Post by Holly Kennedy on Feb 28, 2008 17:12:48 GMT -5
Holly almost started to cry again as a slow tear rolled down her cheek. She knew she would have to tell PJ someday but she didn't want to tell him because she knew he would freak out, who wouldn't?
"he may be the dad but I know he'll freak out. That's why I don't want to tell him. I couldn't deal with his reaction" She said paniced as she looked Ryuu in the eye as she told him this.
"He'll want to disown me" she sighed as she looked down as more tears rolled down her cheek. |
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Post by Ryuu James on Mar 2, 2008 2:28:29 GMT -5
Ryuu cursed in his head when Holly started crying again. What a jerk, making a girl cry! Sighing, he stopped and pulled her into a hug, resting his chin on her shoulder so he could whisper in her ear.
“I really wish I could promise you he won’t. But from personal experience, I know that he might. PJ is nothing like me, Holly. He’s not scared of commitment. And unlike I was with Claire, he’s totally devoted to you. I’ve never seen a guy so besotted by someone. I’ll do everything I can to make this alright for you, okay? You have my word,” he kissed her cheek in a friendly manner, and squeezed her slightly. He felt emotional now too, but he couldn’t break. Not in front of Holly. He let go, and smiled encouragingly at her before descending the last steps.
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