Post by nate on Mar 17, 2008 13:44:45 GMT -5
Title: Life changes
Author: Autumn
Main character: Told from Phoenix
Other characters: Holly, Ryuu, Bill is mentioned, Jared, and Nicoli Foxx Cohen
[/size]Author: Autumn
Main character: Told from Phoenix
Other characters: Holly, Ryuu, Bill is mentioned, Jared, and Nicoli Foxx Cohen
Sometimes, I feel like I'm being a complete bastard, toward some people, and not some much to others. I get these feelings, urges if that what you wanna call them, to disappear for a day or two.. unwind, but all the while have people worrying about me at home. I guess its the only thing I ever learned from my dad... how to run from your problems and me as stupid as possible in doing these things. Honestly, you thing my dad would give me more useful things. I mean yeah, thanks dad for the genes and the ability to get overly drunk and pass out, but honestly.. don't you think you could have showed me something worth using?
It doesn't matter now though, I'm not gonna be getting anything else from him for the rest of my life. Dad ended up dying about a month ago, right before Nicoli's first birthday. He never got to see his grandson... died from a heart attack(more like a completely destroyed liver). I think the surprise of the situation and all slowly killed him. Now when I found out, I know I was being a bastard. I was completely inconsolable. I'm actually pretty sure I drank myself stupid, but I don't really remember. Broken promises... It seems like that all I'm good for on some days. I didn't really look after him like I should have, But it wasn't really my place, I'm the child, not the parent... actually I take that back.
I'll tell you something, this fathering business isn't so bad. Its actually really rewarding, however I can't imagine how mom and dad dealt with two boys, I can hardly handle the one I've got. Nicoli is getting so big. He's so cute. Is that OK to say to a guy? Usually if you call a grown man cute, they kinda resent you for it, but rules probably change for babies. He's talking a little bit, mostly babbling. I'm trying to tech him Italian... I really don't want the family language to die with me... Holly and Nicoli are the only family I have left. I grateful for that. I can't really tell if Nicoli looks more like me or Holly. Its actually kinda both I guess. He's got brownish colored hair, it seems like it just keeps getting longer. He's got that cute little chubby face that baby's usually have and Holly's eyes. He's beautiful.
The first six months was torture. Every night, at around four o' clock, it was like an alarm clock went of in Nicoli's head, and sounded his too. At first, when he would cry, I would feel like breaking down, not knowing what to do to calm him down, but in the middle of the night, I figured that a glass of warm milk(for the both of us) and a little bit of rocking soothed him. Holly could probably tell you about countless times she would wake up to find me in the rocking chair in the nursery, asleep with a sleeping 'Coli in my arms. I guess thats the way guys have to learn stuff, trail and error. I have a new respect for holly and the way she manages both me and our kid. She's gotta be super woman or something, I've been watching, waiting for her to go into a phone booth and come out as Super Madre Or something.
I love watching them, Holly and Nicoli Foxx, that is. Mother and Son. Its seems like Holly just naturally took into the swing of things. Most of the time, Nicoli is attached to her hip, or her leg. If not, he's usually into something he shouldn't be. Curious little kid, kinda like I was when I was little. Oh, he's got our names down. He calls Holly 'made', would probably be Madre if he could get the r's out. But I'm not sure he's really sure what my name is. Thanks to Holly he calls me a variety of things, such as Peeay, I guess its sounds like PJ unless he magically learn another language in a year and his cussing me. He calls me Pade too... Same with the R problem.
I guess that I can't really say their my only family can I? Ryuu and Jared have been with us through this whole thing, I find it absolutely hilarious when they baby sit... I'd rather stay here and watch them try than leave Nicoli and not be able to see what fun the three of them have. through leaving the two of them with Nicoli, we've learned that dirty diapers stick to kitchen walls -gags-. I'm guessing the two of them are doing fine. After that whole Bill incident, Ryuu seems to be getting on the straight path -blinks- Well I'm not sure If its right to call it a 'straight path'. I'm pretty sure he's found someone thats right for him, him and Jared found each other. Hey, as long as they don't turn my son into a cross dresser or something like that, I think I'll be fine.Oh yes, Holly is no longer Holly Kennedy(much to Aaron's dismay), she is now Holly Cohen, lucky her... she gets to put up with me for the rest of her life.
On the subject of Aaron, We still don't really like each other, But we get along for Holly and Nicoli's sake. Holly needs to have something to do with him, even if she doesn't want anything to do with the rest of the family. I wish my brother would have been a bit more protective, would have saved me a lot of trouble times like getting spaghetti shoved up my nose by the bigger kids, hell.. I've never been real popular, but I consider Nicoli my biggest fan.
I'm enjoying Miami. As much as I would love to take Nicoli and Holly To Italy, I would never move back, nor would I move away from here. This place had been good to me, as well as the people in it. I would have never expected that I would fall in love with this place. Or the people here, assuming half of Watson's population is gay. Anyways, I had a bit of spare time With Nicoli was sleeping, But I can hear him crying now, Holly had gone out to get a few things for dinner, so I guess that leaves me to take care of him.... yummy! warm milk time.
It doesn't matter now though, I'm not gonna be getting anything else from him for the rest of my life. Dad ended up dying about a month ago, right before Nicoli's first birthday. He never got to see his grandson... died from a heart attack(more like a completely destroyed liver). I think the surprise of the situation and all slowly killed him. Now when I found out, I know I was being a bastard. I was completely inconsolable. I'm actually pretty sure I drank myself stupid, but I don't really remember. Broken promises... It seems like that all I'm good for on some days. I didn't really look after him like I should have, But it wasn't really my place, I'm the child, not the parent... actually I take that back.
I'll tell you something, this fathering business isn't so bad. Its actually really rewarding, however I can't imagine how mom and dad dealt with two boys, I can hardly handle the one I've got. Nicoli is getting so big. He's so cute. Is that OK to say to a guy? Usually if you call a grown man cute, they kinda resent you for it, but rules probably change for babies. He's talking a little bit, mostly babbling. I'm trying to tech him Italian... I really don't want the family language to die with me... Holly and Nicoli are the only family I have left. I grateful for that. I can't really tell if Nicoli looks more like me or Holly. Its actually kinda both I guess. He's got brownish colored hair, it seems like it just keeps getting longer. He's got that cute little chubby face that baby's usually have and Holly's eyes. He's beautiful.
The first six months was torture. Every night, at around four o' clock, it was like an alarm clock went of in Nicoli's head, and sounded his too. At first, when he would cry, I would feel like breaking down, not knowing what to do to calm him down, but in the middle of the night, I figured that a glass of warm milk(for the both of us) and a little bit of rocking soothed him. Holly could probably tell you about countless times she would wake up to find me in the rocking chair in the nursery, asleep with a sleeping 'Coli in my arms. I guess thats the way guys have to learn stuff, trail and error. I have a new respect for holly and the way she manages both me and our kid. She's gotta be super woman or something, I've been watching, waiting for her to go into a phone booth and come out as Super Madre Or something.
I love watching them, Holly and Nicoli Foxx, that is. Mother and Son. Its seems like Holly just naturally took into the swing of things. Most of the time, Nicoli is attached to her hip, or her leg. If not, he's usually into something he shouldn't be. Curious little kid, kinda like I was when I was little. Oh, he's got our names down. He calls Holly 'made', would probably be Madre if he could get the r's out. But I'm not sure he's really sure what my name is. Thanks to Holly he calls me a variety of things, such as Peeay, I guess its sounds like PJ unless he magically learn another language in a year and his cussing me. He calls me Pade too... Same with the R problem.
I guess that I can't really say their my only family can I? Ryuu and Jared have been with us through this whole thing, I find it absolutely hilarious when they baby sit... I'd rather stay here and watch them try than leave Nicoli and not be able to see what fun the three of them have. through leaving the two of them with Nicoli, we've learned that dirty diapers stick to kitchen walls -gags-. I'm guessing the two of them are doing fine. After that whole Bill incident, Ryuu seems to be getting on the straight path -blinks- Well I'm not sure If its right to call it a 'straight path'. I'm pretty sure he's found someone thats right for him, him and Jared found each other. Hey, as long as they don't turn my son into a cross dresser or something like that, I think I'll be fine.Oh yes, Holly is no longer Holly Kennedy(much to Aaron's dismay), she is now Holly Cohen, lucky her... she gets to put up with me for the rest of her life.
On the subject of Aaron, We still don't really like each other, But we get along for Holly and Nicoli's sake. Holly needs to have something to do with him, even if she doesn't want anything to do with the rest of the family. I wish my brother would have been a bit more protective, would have saved me a lot of trouble times like getting spaghetti shoved up my nose by the bigger kids, hell.. I've never been real popular, but I consider Nicoli my biggest fan.
I'm enjoying Miami. As much as I would love to take Nicoli and Holly To Italy, I would never move back, nor would I move away from here. This place had been good to me, as well as the people in it. I would have never expected that I would fall in love with this place. Or the people here, assuming half of Watson's population is gay. Anyways, I had a bit of spare time With Nicoli was sleeping, But I can hear him crying now, Holly had gone out to get a few things for dinner, so I guess that leaves me to take care of him.... yummy! warm milk time.
Assolutamente confusi,
Phoenix Cohen.
Phoenix Cohen.