Post by Ryuu James on Mar 17, 2008 16:21:57 GMT -5
Well they don't hate you
You know they love you
But they gonna come kill you
They don’t mean you any harm
It's just what they do
Could be your mother
Could be your father
Or your best friend in the world
But just like blood and rain,
Love and pain are one and the same
You wear a mask with a target
Keep your enemies closer
You fall in love from a great height,
Now the easy part's over
Choose your battles, not your soldiers
You know they'll show their colours
But just like blood and rain,
Love and pain are one and the same
Just like blood and rain,
Love and pain are one and the same
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Life’s…Weird.
Bill came into my life, and disappeared just as soon as he appeared. He came, he saw, and I don’t think he liked it very much. He’s disappeared back to Germany, and he’s certainly not going to call me again. Well…Fuck him, is all I can say. I never really truly loved him, in the sense of feeling faithful and all that malarkey. Hell, I slept with Oli like, the day after I made myself ‘committed’ to him. And had a little fun with Parker. And Alex…but let’s not go there…
Yeh. On the subject of Alex! Can I have permission to rant a lot please? GOD he’s such a selfish prick! I’m so mad at him it’s not funny. He is still getting all emo about that kiss thing and it’s just like…dude, we were totally off our heads, get over it. And we sort of had an argument in the locker rooms the other day and he fucking brought up my family, didn’t he? I got so mad; I pushed him up against the locker and pounded his nose in. And for my efforts I got a punch in the stomach and a very upset Holly. But come on, he thinks he knows everything, or something…I dunno. He’s just a stuck up, rich, snobby, emo kid that needs to lighten up big time.
The other day I was at breakfast with Jared (aw my lovely Jared…I’ll tell you more in a mo) and guess who turned up! IRJA! Irja fucking James. Yes, my twin brother Irja. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing! I’d spoken to him once on IM before, and I was totally freaked out and confused (maybe Fly hacked the school internet? I dunno. Fly’s a total computer savvy). I guess he did get in. I can’t believe Claire would let him come without her. God…Claire. I’m going to talk about that later before it kills the nice thing I want to say.
Anyway…Oh my god! Reagan threw a killer sleep over party the other day. It was great. I think she threw out my RHCP vest but…what the heck! (I took it off because she complained. God damned RHCP hater. Ha-ha). Anyway, Jared comes in and he’s all -jaw drops- and I was like -saucy grin- and before too long I’d pinned him on the bed and gotten his shirt off. Damn he’s … hot. Wow. We were just really good friends before, it never really occurred to me that I really liked him. Well, he didn’t seem to object, and we made out…a lot…and damn it felt good having his tongue down my throat. I think I might have fucked the sexy little thing right there if we’d been alone. And then guess who showed his face? Irja. God. He has to stick his nose in EVERYTHING. Ugh. We had a bit of an argument, and I kicked him in the balls - which, may I add, was pretty damn fun. I quickly made the excuse that I was going to get some chips (because me and Jared successfully managed to change the carpet into a cheesy Dorito mess) and dragged Jared back to my room with me.
It turns out Jared’s never gone that far before with a guy. I felt kind of special, y’know? He’s just for me, no one else got there first. Gosh, I feel a bit selfish I suppose…I’ve had it from so many people I think I’ve lost count. My year book quote’s going to be ‘most likely to catch an STD before 20’ or something. I was so worried about hurting him though, it was weird. I’ve never worried about hurting someone before…I’ve just been too busy being a selfish, sex craving pig. Ouch, confessions. But, I guess he …enjoyed it? I dunno. I was too busy getting all loved up about how cute he is when he’s exhausted. I could have just held him all day. He’s very cosy, you know. And seeming as I left my duvet in Reagan’s dorm and Tom would have slaughtered me if I took his that was pretty useful. Anyways, talking about my sexual experience with him is beside the point. I am totally and utterly in love with Jared, and it would kill me to have it any other way now. Although…I have this odd feeling that…Irja might…like him? I dunno. But if Irja even THINKS about trying anything funny I’ll kill him, brother or no brother.
I…Found a picture in Irja’s dorm yesterday… (Yeah, I went snooping. Ha, still haven’t given up that nasty habit.). I was so…god. It made me cry like a 4 year old. It was Irja, Claire, Fly(Irja’s…boyfriend…I think?) and … my…Son. I was in shock. I can’t believe how stupid I am! Damn…I’m crying again. Gosh…I’m all typed out.
Expect to hear more from me soon.
The Infamous Ryuu James.
